Losing track of the days...

I was on such a roll...

Finally I thought I'd got back into the swing of things with writing decent enough content and actually remembering to click publish. But clearly I was wrong as today isn't Sunday and to be honest...this post has no meaning. 

So it's the middle of October break meaning I should have had loads of spare time to catch up on things...wrong. I should of been doing extra things for my art folio, revising the maths stuff I just don't get or even finishing my personal statement but I still haven't got round to doing those things. I've worked a few extra shifts, tidyed my room for my grandma visiting and I've seen a few friends. 
And I lost track of the days. 

You've got a friend in me...

So apparently it's Sunday today...where did the week go??

To me, my friends are one of the most important things in my life. I honestly don't know where I'd be without them...so this week I thought I'd write a list about the types of friends you need in your life.

Those that can make you laugh. Any time any place and sometimes simply about nothing. They instantly put a smile on your face and it's impossible to be angry or upset in their presence.

The ones that you can completely geek out with or in my case...someone to fangirl with.
They just get you and appreciate you love for said thing and you don't feel like you're being annoying when talking about that thing because the other person is thinking the exact same wiphen they speak.

They do say friends are the family you pick! I honestly don't know where I'd be without these kind of friends. I wouldn't say I'm that close with my parents and I don't talk to my mum about personal things so I go to these friends of mine. I know they will always be there no matter what and I can literally say anything without being judged...In fact as soon as this post is published I will be on the phone. 

I really hate the whole 'girls can't be "just friends" with guys'...course they can! Two of my best friends for years are guys and nothing has gone on between me and either of them. There is always so much less drama when you're friends with guys cause they aren't half as bitchy as most girls are and they always give good advice, partly because it's from a guys point of view!

And finally there are those friends that are always always gonna be there even if you haven't seen them for years. Everything will always slot back to how they used to be. 

Esmee xx

It's the little things...

"I'm in love with you...And all these little things..."

Sometimes it's the little things that make you happiest or make you smile the most. Recently I have had a smile pretty much glued to my face and all because of small thing others would think stupid or cringey but have made me feel happy and excited and loved. 

This week I thought I'd share with you a little list of 10 little things in life that I know will might put a smile on your faces. 

1. Unexpected surprises...I hate surprises if I know that I'm going to be surprised but when I have no idea and it's completely out of the blue I can't help but be happy that someone has surprised me.

2. Good morning/night messages...because they don't just mean 'good morning' or 'good night' they mean 'you're the first thing I thought about when I woke up' or 'you're the last thing I'm think about before I go to sleep' :)

3. When someone remember irrelevant details...why else would someone remember those things if they didn't care about you?

4. Thoughtful gifts...things with meaning or memories for example flowers that relate to certain emotions or printed photos from trips or events like the ones a friend of mine gave me the other day from a party at the start of the year. 

5. Nicknames...9 times out of 10 cutesy nicknames will make me cringe sooo much but sometimes depending on what it is & who's saying it, they will definitely be able to make me smile! 

6. "Snuggling"/cuddling...whether it's with a younger sibling, a pet or a boyfriend/girlfriend, the feeling of being loved is guaranteed to put a smile on your face. 

7. Long phone calls...there's just something about speaking to a friend on the phone rather than having the same conversation over text or Facebook.

8. Unintentionally matching...you know that feeling you get when things you wear match or looks really good but you had no intention of it happening? That would make you smile. 

9. Winning games/pop quizzes...'cause everyone loves to feel powerful :p

10. Compliments...bit of an obvious one but if someone says something nice about you, it's gonna make you smile. 

Obviously there are loads more but those were just some that I thought off the top of my head. Let me know in the comments what little things make you smile :) 

Esmee xx

What Now?? // Life Update

Last weekend was a whirlwind I'd rather not explain...

But anyway...This week saw yet another trip away to walk round universities and pretty much decide my future. I now know where I want to go and what I want to study but one thing I can't get my head around is why?

Writing my personal statement is proving really difficult and time consuming as I have no idea exactly why I want to study accounting or economics. I'm not entirely sure what interested me in these areas of study or how I'd make a good candidate.  

I'm sorry things have been a bit hit and miss recently...they'll probably continue this way until I manage to get my head around things!

Esmee x

"Your own catastrophy"

I found this quote as I was scanning through Pinterest and originally thought it read "I am then designed of my own destiny" rather than catastrophy. And I think this was because we live in a world where we want everything to be perfect...when in reality it is quite the opposite. 

Majority of the time I live in a dream world (not as in la-la-crazy might I add!!). I'm such a perfectionist and love it when things go the way I imagine. Which I guess is why this stuck out to me. Because I always want things to go the way I plan. But that's not real and things don't happen like that. Life has its ups but it also has a lot of downs...things don't go smoothly and people mess up. And I can't control that.

Recently, things for me where going amazing and I was so happy, but after one night I crashed. Something happened that broke me and I didn't know how to react. I let things lie broken and didn't try to repair it even though what I wanted more than anything was to erase the events from that night so that things could still be how they were. 

I'm sorry that this has gone up so late, in all honesty I didn't know what to write as with all the things going on in my life I didn't really feel up for pretending to be happy or excited about something. 

Esmee x

The next Chapter...what does the future hold? // Life Update

Oops I missed a week again...

Last weekend was a bit of a mess...there wasn't a minute where I stopped.

Friday night I was babysitting till late, Saturday I was covering a 9 hour shift at work to the be rushed off to what I though would be a fun evening round a campfire at a friend's party (turned out to be the complete opposite...). I left early as I had full days work on Sunday which was hectic as I'd had next to no sleep after a restless night therefore! When I got in the door at 6 I pretty much collapsed...hence the missing post.

Any way...what I wanted to talk about this week is the future...or more specifically, my future.

Monday night saw Dad and I driving down to Glasgow to spend two days walking around the University of Strathclyde and Glasgow. It wasn't until the journey that it dawned on me that in a years time we could be making this journey but this time to my new home for the next 4+ years! 

I'd be lying if I didn't say that scared me. 

Leaving the comfort blanket of my family home will definitely be a shock to me, leaving behind everything I know and starting a new adventure.

There is that part of me that can't wait to get away from here though...to somewhere new with thousands of new people...a fresh start to the next chapter.

Esmee x

The town was made of paper, but the memories were not...

You will go to the paper towns and you will never come back...

I was so excited when I found out this was being made into a movie! Paper Towns is definitely my favourite John Green book and personally I believe it's better than The Fault In Our Stars...(sorry all you TFIOS fans out there!) and I highly recommend you all read the book. 

Paper Towns sees the return of Nat Wolff as lead character Quentin Jacobsen and mode/musician/actress/eyebrowns Cara Delevingne as the mystery of Margo Roth-Spiegelman. After a night of adventure, Margo disappears leaving behind clues as she always does. Quentin and his friends discover said clues as set off on a roller-coaster road trip on a quest to find her.

I won't give away too much about this movie as I hate spoilers myself but one thing I will say is keep your eyes pealed for a cheeky lil cameo from one of John Green and Nat Wolff's good friends ;)

Overall though, I loved the movie just as much as I loved the book...which to be honest is rare. It was interesting to see Cara Delevingne being more than just a pretty face and it was really hard not to fall in love with Nat Wolff...I want my own Quentin Jacobsen!

Have you seen Paper Towns already? If so...what did you think? 
Esmee xx

Who Runs The World // Power Playlist

Everyone needs a bit of girl power every now and again...

I'm no music expert and I don't know any technical terms to describe it properly...nor am I gonna pretend I do. 

This weeks post is simply a playlist. 

A playlist full of sing-out-loud pop songs all by strong powerful female artists.

Just remember...

Esmee xx

Summer, Stalling & Shock // Life Update

A "classic" ezzlepops post...a little life update...

So if you follow me on Instagram then you will know that at the start of my summer holidays I spent two weeks in the sunny South of France. I would do a post about it but to be honest it was pretty similar to last year which I blogged about HERE.

Bastille Day fireworks 2015

On our return to the UK we were greeted by some pretty rubbish weather which really sucked...I mean, it's supposed to be summer!!

Shortly after arriving home I had my first ever driving lesson. It actually went a lot better than I though it would! (I only stalled the car once!) Between then and now I've become a lot more comfortable and my instructor was very impressed the other day and called me a natural :)

I'm one of those people who will say before the end of term "let me know when you're free and we can organise something fun to do!" to everyone and then never get round to doing anything about it. This year was different, I managed to find a time when my whole friendship group was free and organised a picnic...well that what would have happened if the weather hadn't got in the way. We all still had fun though; pizza at mine before popping down the village for an ice cream then back to mine for a "scary" movie (I say "scary"...it was a pretty shockingly awful cheap-budget movie ;P). 

Also on my return to the UK I decided I need to try losing some weight...at least all the extra weight I put on during study leave! To do this I bought Charlotte Crosby's '3 Minute Belly Blitz' DVD. If she could do it then so could I. I actually enjoy doing this more than I expected as some of the lessons are really fun but some also do make you feel like you're dying!

If you're a long-term reader of my blog you will know that last year I worked in a sports shop, unfortunately 3 months after I started there the shop was closing down. Since November I haven't had a job but now that I have loads of spare time (and complete lack of money!) I decided it was time to find a new one. After emailing literally everywhere nearby, I received quite a few responses and interviews. So now I have a job working at my favourite coffee shop :D

In Scotland, we sit exams a lot earlier than those in England so therefore our results day is a lot earlier too...last Tuesday to be precise! I was so nervous about these results that I decided I would stay up waiting for my email/text...I lasted to about 2am before I had to get some sleep! 6 hours later and my results were sitting waiting for me. I was expecting the worst (especially after the shock of the maths exam...did any of you hear about that?!) but was actually really surprised and shocked but super happy because now this means I have a better chance of getting into the courses I want to do at uni next year!

What've you been up to so far this summer?

Esmee xx

7 Lies us girls tell...

Some of those little white lies us girls can't help but say...

"Just leaving now"

She says as she finally decides what to wear or finishes her makeup. Don't expect so see her for another half hour max. 

"I'll do it tomorrow"

Not necessarily specific to girls but I feel we all say it enough to be included in this list.

"Time to give up [item]" or "Diet starts on Monday"

Some girls, me included, are forever deciding to give up certain things in order to improve themselves. Normally it's some kind of food (chocolate, crisps, pizza, junk, alcohol...you get the idea) or occasionally it will be from buying a certain product.

Building up to a new health kick and pigging out on the weekend in preparation to saying goodbye to the junk food, only to forget half way through Monday and give in to temptations. Girls don't lie...we've all been there before.

"I have nothing to wear" 

I laugh whenever I hear this line yet we're all guilty of it. A girl get invited out and feels they need something new to wear or they don't own anything suitable for the occasion. Mainly because they've worn the majority of wardrobe already and God forbid anyone sees them in the same outfit again or people notice in pictures.

"I'm over it"

She's not over it. Simple as that. Watch out though because those three little words could come with some serious attitude and typically she is either upset and on the verge of tears or angry and throwing daggers. Be Careful.

"Nothings wrong, I'm fine"

Probably the most common one...ever. If a girl ever says this 1) something is wrong and 2) she is not fine. Even if she just says "I'm fine" chances are she's not. Give her a hug and let her spill her heart out just whatever you do...do not say "Everything's going to be okay".

"It's cool." Or "It's fine."

9 times out of 10 it's really not cool or fine. Don't believe it. It's a girls way of being completely blunt with the situation. If a girl says this to you (especially if she ignores you for a while afterwards) you should know what you've done wrong and don't need an explanation.

Esmee xx

An Apology...

Those two little words..."I'm sorry".

Recently I've found myself saying that a lot. And not just in the typically British way...in the genuine "I've f*cked up" way. I wanted to take this opportunity to apologise for various things to various people.

Let's start with those that read my blog and members of the same blogging communities as me. I'm sorry for the lack of content on here recently and with how distant I've been. I wish I could blame it on being super busy and struggling to find time but it's not. It's sheer laziness and a great big lack of motivation. I start posts and write a few lines or even just the title but then they get forgotten or I can't find the words to expand them. And I feel embarrassed by how shocking they are that I just delete the words I've just typed...like I've almost done here.

Next to my family. I have never been the "perfect daughter" to my parents or the "good role-model" to my little sisters. I feel like I'm sometimes I really let them down, and even though they'll probably never read this I just wanted to apologise for it. 

Most of all I'm sorry to all those who have listened to me to me rant and rave and break down many many times. Thank you also for putting up with that and sticking by me over the years when others couldn't handle me. I want to apologise for always talking about myself and my life, most recently more than ever. There have been times when some of you needed me but I was to absorbed in my own little bubble to realise that and I'm sorry I didn't notice earlier.

I'm sorry I couldn't be the girl you wanted to me to be. That I didn't live up to expectations. I doubt what I say and what I do because I don't want to let you down or be a disappointment. I wanted to be the one that makes you smile and cheers you up when you're feeling down but it looks like I'm not able to do that. And I don't know what to do to change things. 

Fingers crossed I can get things back to how they used to be but I'm not gonna make any promises that I know I might not be able to keep! Until next time...

Esmee xx

100 days...!

Reaching that important target!

In a years time, my Girl Guiding friends and I will be heading off on a trip to Switzerland to celebrate 100 years of Senior Section. I'm order to do this though a lot of fundraising has to be done to reach our target...and we seem to have hit a brick wall with ideas. 

So far we've held bake sales and coffee mornings. Helped with the local panto and received a donation. Bag packed at various supermarkets in the area. And after summer we have a quiz night, photo shoots and Halloween disco planned. These have raised a lot but not enough for 20 of us to go. 

Here's where I need your help. Have you had to do fundraising for something? What activities did you do in order to reach your targets? If not, do you have any fun and cool ways of raising a bit of cash? Let me know in the comments please! And I'll remember to keep you updated on how it's all going!

Esmee x

The Prom Edit

Some of my regular readers may have noticed I have been a bit MIA this month on my blog. June has been hectic with two weeks of work experience, various fundraising activities and lots of prep for events. One of those events being my school dance...or "prom" as people call it. To make up for my disappearance this month I have decided to combine lots of little ideas into one big post dedicated to all things prom!

The biggest dilemma any girl will have is finding "the dress". Hours will be spent searching the racks and browsing online in order to find it but trust me it's out there somewhere! Here are some websites that may be useful for you;
Debenhams
Coast
Quiz clothing
asos
Miss Selfridge
boohoo
Little Mistress
Chi Chi London

I am obsessed with Pinterest and where better to look for inspiration for your hair and makeup! Girls, you don't need to spend money for someone to do it for you and it turn out differently to how you expected...don't get me wrong, every girl loves her hair and makeup done professionally but it can be expensive and you're not in control. Find a style and get practising!

Matching everything together can be difficult! If in doubt go for simple things...delicate jewelery and block colour clutches. As for shoes, choose something you can walk in. There's really no point in buying really high heels that you're only going to wear once if you spend your night hobbling along trying not to trip. I've heard stories of girls taking a pair of flats in their bag to wear if they get sore feet or to dance in but what really is the point? Just take your heels off and go bare foot...It's easier and you don't have to worry about finding a second matching pair of shoes.

I am one of those people who over pack for anything which is why I though I would include a little check list of essentials for a prom clutch. Obviously your phone and ticket, some spare cash in case you have to get a taxi anywhere and your lip gloss or lipstick if you want to top it up over the course of the night.

Here are some things to remember and other tips to ensure you have a close to perfect night!

1. Make sure to book all your appointments in advance for between a week and a few days before your dance...you don't want to still have red marks from and eyebrow wax or for your spray tan to go wrong!
2. When choosing a dress make sure you're comfortable in it, there's nothing worse than not being able to dance or feel self-conscience all night.
3. Have plans with your friends for before and after the event 
4. Don't be the one that spends the night sat down...get up and dance the night away!
5. So what if you don't have a date? Don't let that bother you and just enjoy your night.
6. Remember to try and take as many photos as possible or else you'll regret it.

But most importantly...have fun!!!

Esmee x

How do you get up from an All Time Low?

Yesterday was a very difficult day. 

I had a pretty big meltdown which is never fun. Luckily no one was around to witness it as I didn't want to explain myself to anyone in person. 

I woke up at about half nine but didn't get out of bed until one when mum came back with my sister from a swimming competition. After I realised what the time was, there was really no point in getting ready for the day as I'd wasted half of it already. Bad decision as that just made me feel worse. I couldn't look at myself in the mirror without getting upset (not because I was still wearing my pjs) but I could see every single one of my flaws clearer than ever. 

Not eating didn't help either. The thought of food just made me feel sick. Eventually I ended up eating an entire bag of microwaveable pop corn which I don't even feel guilty about. 

I should be glad that my exams are over, at the time of walking out that exam room I was so happy that they we're finally over, but now I'm dreading going back to school. And I'm not entirely sure why.

One of my biggest fears is feeling alone. Even though friends where only a message away, I still felt incredibly alone and ignored yesterday which caused me to have a mini breakdown multiple times. I always feel like I'm annoying someone by sending them a message but then begin to get worked up and overthink situations so easily which begins to upset me and in most cases I make stupid mistakes which I regret instantly.

The weather outside seems to be on the same rollercoaster as me. One minute it's sunny and the next it's hailing...much like my mood swings yesterday.

I feel like I just need to get away for a bit...luckily enough for me I only have a month left till summer! 

Esmee x

p.s. 100 points to you if you get the reference from the title!

The Bella's Are BACK

Disclaimer; This post may contain small spoilers.

"The Bella's are back, and they are better than ever. After being humiliated in front of none other than the President of the United States of America, the Bella's are taken out of the Aca-Circuit. In order to clear their name and regain their status, the Bella's take on a seemingly impossible task: winning an International competition no American team has ever won. In order to accomplish this monumental task, they need to strengthen the bonds of friendship and sisterhood, and blow away the competition with their amazing aca-magic! With all new friends and old rivals tagging along for the trip, the Bella's can hopefully accomplish their dreams once again."

That's right Aca-b*tches. The Barden Bella's are back for a second movie and are ready to have you singing along.

Hands down Pitch Perfect is one of my favourite movies by far...I even went to see it twice at the cinema. And after some pretty stressful exams, a trip to the cinema had to be planned. 

It could be said that the story line is pretty identical to the first with new twists. There are new characters such as Bella legacy Emily Junk and Das Sound Machine as well as the return of characters who would have graduated or left in the last movie; Aubrey Posen and Bumper Allen. One thing that did disappoint me was how littler there was of Skylar Astin aka Jesse, he's there at the beginning preforming as the lead of the Treblemakers but shortly disappears and only reappears with Benji when the Bella's are smashing it at the worlds. 

Beca no longer works at the Radio Station and is instead interning for a music producer which she tries to impress with the mash-up we heard in the first movie. After being given a second chance to show her skills Beca asks singer songwriter Emily if she would like to collaborate on something. Queue ultra-catchy song about a flashlight which features throughout the movie.
Talking of music, pretty much everything is a mash-up bar a few songs and Cups is back. But this time sung round a campfire as part of the Bella's finding their sound again at Aubrey's outdoor summer-type camp. Speaking of which actually looks like it would be so much fun! 
There are a few more romances this time; Beca and Jesse are still together, Benji takes an interest in the new Bella and of course there is something going on between Bumper and Fat Amy. In any other movie this would be typical and so cheesy/cringey...Bumper confesses his love for Fat Amy in an incredibly romantic way which completely contrasts with his character traits. However, after pouring his heart out and shedding some tears everything doesn't as planned...until later. 
After a mash-up emphasising the power of women, back is the song about the flashlight. The stage falls to darkness with a single spot light on Beca which grows as more of the Bella's join in with the song. As the chorus kicks in so does the lights and cheers. The Bella's we have followed in the movie are joined on stage by generations of past Bella's to celebrate them competing in the World's.

Have you see the Pitch Perfect 2 yet? Are are you planning on going soon? If you get the chance, definitely go!

Esmee x 

It's been a while... // Life Update

It's been a while since I've done a post like this so I thought I'd give you a little update on whats been going on in my life recently.

I have officially finished 5th year and after exams I will be in my last year of school...how scary is that! I have no idea how I'm going to be able to cope when I leave school :P 

Although I am looking forward to 6th year for many reasons...one being only 3 subjects and many free periods!

A few weeks ago I wrote a post about my lack of motivation...turns out I still haven't gained any. I had my first exam on Friday which was English (the subject I hate the most!) and surprisingly if went well which I wasn't expecting. 

One thing that I'm really happy about is two of my best friends from my old school aren't going away next year. One will be at college and one at uni up here and if they don't stay at home they're only an hours drive away!

Talking of driving...I have finally got a date for my first lesson! Only problem is it's two months away :/

I would like to apologise for my lack of involvement in the blogging communities I am members of as well as lack of content on here this past month. I wish I could blame this on exams but to be honest I really can't. 

Last Saturday, I went to my fourth Tartan Gig which was a lot of fun! The line up this year was; Rixton, Karen Harding, Only The Young, Nina Nesbitt, Conor Maynard, Neon Jungle and Labrinth. Photos can be found on my Instagram: @ezzlepops

When I go back to school, after work experience, I have a few weeks until it's my school dance. I have my dress and I know how doing my makeup, mums friend kindly offered to do my hair so I don't need to worry about that mess. All I have left to do is sort out shoes, bag and accessories...oh and plan what I'm doing before hand and after!

There are some other stuff going on in my life at the moment but as these are more personal things I've decided I'm going to keep quiet about them on my blog. I know that this is mainly a lifestyle blog and that I've talking about my personal life quite a bit before, I just feel like because this is new to me that I want to keep it a little secret for as long as I can. I hope you don't mind! 

Last night I spent about an hour or so on the phone to my best friend from school and some of the things she said made me think about friendships I've had in the past. I've known this girl for less than 6 months yet she cares more about me than some of the girls I knew for years did. I felt so loved and special that one of the things she wanted the most was for me to be happy. 

Long time readers of my blog will know I've done posts like this in the past, but for those who read the occasional post or every post...what do you think about blog posts like this? Let me know your thoughts in the comments :)

Esmee xx

Bucket List:The Met Gala

Last year I wrote a post very similar to this one about how going to Coachella was on my bucket list and after flicking through all the photos from the 2015 Met Gala, it's made me really want to go, experience the gigantic red carpet (obviously not walking down it myself!) and take my own photos of the dresses worn. The theme this year was China Through the Looking Glass and its fair to say everyone took that differently! 

I wanted to share a few of my favourite looks with you guys this week :)

Cara Delevingne
This girl could wear literally anything and still look amazing! I love the face that she chose trousers over a dress and is rocking those temporary cherry blossom tattoos. Definitely a unique twist on the theme. 

Gigi Hadid
Current top celebrity girl crush! Gigi looks stunning in the red number and I'm incredibly jealous. Red is definitely her colour! Also look at her shoes...not I'm not a huge pointy toe open shoe kind of girl but I love these so much.

Karlie Kloss 
Ex-Victoria Secrets model Karlie Kloss seems to be everywhere these days! Along with Gigi, she is currently one of my celebrity girl crushes at the moment. The upper part of her dress hugs her model figure and the sheer underneath shows off her incredible legs.

Miranda Kerr 
Stunning yet I can't believe she is 32!! Being different and choosing a short dress for this event allows Miranda Kerr to stand out on the red carpet. The minimal hair, makeup and accessories draw attention to the intricate pattern of her dress clashing with the zig-zag sequins on the sleeves.

Kendall Jenner 
My favourite member of the Kardashian-Jenner clan. The colour of this dress really compliments her skin tone and eyes without being too "in-your-face" like he other family member's choices. Kendall is still young and I love that even though the sides are laced up showing a little side-boob, she hasn't gone too revealing.

Kate Hudson 
Everyone needs a bit of sparkle in their life and Kate is winning with this floor length gold number. How I wish I owned this dress!

Uma Thurman
This is probably actually my favourite dress from the Met Gala and definitely something I would choose to wear. It's just a really classic and traditional white statement dress and Uma looks flawless. 

Beyonce
How could I not talk about Queen B?! Flaunting that hourglass figure in what can only be described at sheer and sparkles. She definitely stole the show and had everyone talking about her look!

What was your favourite Mat Gala look?

Esmee x

The Fletcher crew

Move over Joe and Zoe Sugg, move over the Shaytards or Sacconejolys...the Fletchers are taking over.

Carrie was the first of the Fletcher crew to start making videos on Youtube. Back in 2011 she created the channel "itswaypastmybedtime" and she has continued to make weekly videos ever since then as well as having a career as an actress currently playing Eponine in Les Mis. I have to admit I don't watch Carrie's videos on a weekly basis like I do with the other Fletcher's but instead binge watch a few at a time ever so often. 

A few years down the line and big brother Tom decided he too would start a channel. His first video had received over 15 MILLION (yes...MILLION!!!) views to date...of course it's his wedding speech. Everyone knows about that speech including Hollywood superstar Russell Crowe. 

Tom used his channel so share snippets of his busy life for fans to see as well as using to as a platform to announce major changes in his life, one of which was the Halloween themed video making the announcement that he and Giovanna were having a baby.

The Fletcher siblings began to create weekly videos called Dear Tom/Dear Carrie as they didn't see each other than often and it was a cool way to find out what the other was up to.

Upon the arrival of baby Fletcher, everyday of Giovanna's pregnancy Tom took a photo of her standing in the exact same spot all the way up until she went into labour. After writing a song and piecing the photos together, stop-motion style, the couple revealed the name and shared the first photo of their new baby boy.

Last Christmas Giovanna joined in the fun by vlogging every day in December till Christmas Day after which she joined in with Dear Tom/Carrie and made her videos for her sister-in-law or for Tom when he was away. 

Now to a video which is guaranteed to put a smile on your face...Buzz and the Dandelions. How adorable is Buzz! This video of Tom's has gone viral and last week everyone seemed to be talking about it. If you're feeling down or having a bad day, click the link above and I promise you that you'll feel better. 

Make sure you subscribe to Carrie, Tom and Gi to watch more of there videos and stay updated!

Esmee x

Everyone deserves a second chance to clean up their mistakes...

Just like I believe that everything happens for a reason and that fairy-tale endings do exist. I believe everyone deserves a second chance.

I have come to conclude this because, over time, I have been given my fair share of second chances. 

In 2013 I moved school, this gave me a fresh start and a chance to make new friends. I'll admit I did do some stupid things and made some silly mistakes but if I didn't then I wouldn't be where I am now. From these mistakes I was given second chances with friends which to be honest didn't work out great as we're still not on the bests of terms right now. 

However some second chances are some of the best decisions I have made. Last year, I though I would do the right thing and tell my best friend that I had heard a group of girls saying horrible things about her...wrong thing to do. A few days later everything kicked off because she had confront said group of girls and turned them all against me as well as ignoring me all the way up to the holidays. On the last day of those two weeks I received an apology by text from my her and I forgave her for what she did. Ever since then she has been one of my best friends who I know that I can always rely on to be there for me, trust with my life and always knows the right things to say...well most of the time.

When we're younger we tend to fall for people easily, and often the wrong people. During a disagreement with some old friends a couple of years ago, a boy was involved...first showing interest in me before swiftly moving onto one of my best friends at the time. As you would imagine, I was upset but also a bit angry with both of them. 

Two years later that same boy has started talking to me again, and here's the dilemma. He's said he really regrets treating me the way he did and wished it never happened. And after speaking to him for a bit now, I'm starting to believe that he actually means it and is trying to change things.

So you know what...maybe I will give him that second chance if he wants it.

Esmee x

Throwing It Out There...

If I'm being honest, I'm not really happy about this whole blogging thing at the moment.

I constantly feel like changing the appearance of my blog as days I feel it's too childish or too boring. Whenever anyone gives advise on a successful blog they always mention it's layout. Visuals are what attract people to a blog and I feel mine doesn't do that. The problem is I'm never happy with it, I can't find a style that truly represents 'ezzlepops' which I really like.

Another thing it's lacking is content. I've really been struggling to sit down and actually create worthy content. Content that people enjoy reading and share with others or content which draws people in that they come back every week. 

So here's what I'm asking...

What makes you sit down and read a blog post?

What type of posts do you like reading?

If you ran 'ezzlepops' what would you change?

Please, be honest with your answers. Feedback on this kind on this topic, to me, is the most important thing and I would really appreciate your opinions.

Esmee xx

Use Your &

One thing I love about Louise from SprinkleOfGlitter is her ability to inspire. If it wasn't for her then I wouldn't have heard of this campaign and I wouldn't was thought of this blog post idea. 

Despite the multiple videos and blog posts about "How to be a better you" or ones written about how to improve, as a teenager it's really difficult to be positive all the time, especially when it come to ourselves. Self-shaming can become a real problem and knock you back in multiply situations, we're not embracing the qualities we have like we should be & not using them to our advantage in life but instead letting them limit our potential.

"Venus invites you and women everywhere to take a stand against one-dimensional labels."

#UseYourAnd

So to celebrate what Venus is promoting I have created the 'Use Your &' tag. 

It's simple and I encourage, not only those who tag you, but anyone reading this to join in! 

Follow these five steps and have fun! 1. Grab the "Use Your &" logo from the top of the post and share a list of your qualities titled; "I am..." 

2. If you get stuck or can't think of anymore; ask your friends and family around you to describe you using three words and see what they say

3. Thank the blogger who tagged you and include link to Venus' video above 4. Tag as many people as you one and encourage them to use their &!

5. This one isn't a necessary step but I would be always appreciative if you linked back to my blog if you do the tag (free cookies will be on their way to you! But seriously, thank you if you do!) 

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I am...

Loyal & 

Trustworthy & 

Smart &

Nosey 

Honest &

Charismatic &

Energetic &

Mentally strong &

Bubbly &

Fun &

Friendly &

Beautiful &

A chatter box &

A blogger &

A daughter &

A granddaughter &

A sister &

A niece &

A cousin &

A friend &

A best friend &

A student &

A photographer &

A good listener &

A leader &

A team member &

A member of Girl Guiding &

An agony aunt &

A fangirl &

Social media obsessed &

Sophisticated &

Classy &

Adventurous &

Daring &

Creative &

Smiley &

Blonde &

Funny &

Blunt &

Hard-working &

Lazy &

Unorganised &

Caring &

Kind &

Calm &

Dedicated &

Reliable.

I tag;

 Kirsty from http://kirstyhwright.blogspot.co.uk/

Carolyn from http://carolynssimplelife.blogspot.co.uk/

 Izzy K from http://izzyk1998.blogspot.co.uk/

Allie from http://recklessinyourlove.blogspot.co.uk/

Megan from http://www.beaut-iful-you.co.uk/

And anyone else who wants to join in! 

Getting as many people as possible to get involved to share the message Venus is promoting Let me know if you decide to do the tag :) 

Esmee x