10 Years Time

There's seems to be a slight bit of a theme this month...my future. 

Two weeks ago I wrote about suffering from a rollercoaster of emotions, last week I told you all about my job discovery, and this week follows that trend.

I was inspired by Will Darbyshire's video Twenty Two to which he ended on the question; "Where do you think you will be in 10 years time?"

I hope that in 10 years time when I'm 27 that things will be very different. 

I want to know that every day will be a happy day, that I can wake up in the morning with not still being exhausted and that I can spend the day doing something that I love. Whether that's my job after successfully graduating with a degree or being with the people I love. I hope to have found someone who treats me like their princess and will always make me smile no matter what. 

However I don't want my future to be planned out for me. I like taking everyday as it comes and allowing things to be unpredictable, that's what makes things fun and exciting. I hope that this continues and that I receive so many new experiences and opportunities before I choose to settle down and commit to my future.

Esmee x  

The Best Feeling Ever!

I am possibly one of the most indecisive people ever so when it came to choose my future I was stuck. 

I will never understand how schools expect you to know what you want to do with your life at 16, it's crazy. I understand there are those few who know exactly what is going to happen but usually the majority don't have a clue. When I was 14 I chose the subject I was going to study for two years on the Int 2 and Nat 5 courses (if you're English those are GCSEs, apologies I don't know what they are elsewhere) which were Maths, English, French, Art & Design, Graphic Communications, Geography, Chemistry and Physics. Out of those eight, at 16 I narrowed it down to five. And a very broad five that pointed in no specific direction what-so-ever; all Highers in Maths. English, Geography, Chemistry and Art & Design. It has now come to the point where I have had to choose the subjects that I want to sit in my last year of school (as I have listed them all previously why not continue the trend; Adv Higher Art & Design, Adv Higher Pure Maths and crash [the term used when someone hasn't studied the course at a lower level] Higher Business Management).

 Still with no idea what I wanted to do with my life; people started asking questions. These were constant and came from a range of people such as my family, friends, teachers, career advisers. You name it and they have probably asked me what I want to do when I leave school. Yeah, that daunting experience of walking away from everything you're familiar with to a new place with new people and new opportunities. 

I know it's not till after summer but I still can't get it into my head that in less than 6 months I will be the 2nd oldest pupil in the entire school. That's crazy. I still remember being a little first year at my old school and being scared of all the older kids who used to tower over us (hahaha that won't be happening much from me, small people problems!) and laugh at the things we did and said. 

Anyway I'm being side-tracked.

I have sat through multiple careers talks and been bored to death by those peoples day to day jobs. Until Tuesday. A charted accountancy company; Anderson Anderson & Brown, just down the road from school held a careers event for fifth and sixth year students that may have an interest in the world of business. 

For a while now I have been playing about with the idea of becoming an accountant or going into audit. I'm good at maths so I guess that's a start! After listening to the 20-26 year olds talking about what they've done so far in their short careers in various areas of business and what they have achieved, it has inspired me and I'm actually taking an interested into those fields of work.

So yeah that's me kinda decided what I was to do with my life; next thing is to actually work out a specific course and where I actually want to go to university! 

Have you decided what you want to do when you leave school? Or if you've already left do you know what your future looks like? 

Esmee x

Emotional Soup

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*Warning!! This post contains some small spoilers!!*

So I'm currently going through a crazy whirlwind of emotions and from experience, I can tell you...it's really not fun. 

I am currently sat in the sun room writing this whilst I'm supposed to be doing that dreaded thing of revising. It's just dawned on me that I have less that three weeks to complete my Art and English folios as I'm going away on a Geography field trip just before the Easter holidays. I'm stressing out and panicking inside but I just can't find the motivation that's needed which is worrying me even more! Sitting doing past papers for other subjects is scaring me because I'm realising how reliant I am on my notes. 

My exams this year are probably the most important as they determine whether I'll get into uni or not and then confirm what conditionals I will need to get in sixth year. So kinda a big deal. I just can't seem to get my arse in gear and it's frustrating me that I just can't seem to stay concentrated for long enough to get things done.

Enough of all that though, what has really turned me into an emotional mess this weekend was looking back and remembering Friday night.
Yesterday morning Dad and I drove back from Glasgow after an amazing night at The Hydro. Hormones and PCD (post-concert depression...that feeling that you get the day after going to a concert) don't mix and I'm suffering badly. It was my second time seeing the McBusted boys and even though I wasn't as close as I was last year, we still had pretty good seats and I managed to choose the right microphone again (Tom's one) when they moved onto the little stage! It was quite similar to last time as they played McFly and Busted's big hits, as well as new McBusted songs and old songs from both bands (such as 'One for the Radio' from McFly and Busted's '3am'). The staging was set out like an arcade machine (the band now hold a record for building the biggest functional arcade machine in the world!) and of course the DeLorean was part of the show. Oh and Tom's wife Giovanna and their baby boy Buzz (after singing happy birthday to Danny for Thursday the crowd then continued and sung to Buzz for his 1st birthday!) and Harry's wife Izzy were there too! Buzz couldn't stop smiling and waving to everyone and Izzy and Gi were lovely and spoke to some of the fans as well as taking selfies with them (my phone ran out of memory and battery :'( ) I wont go into too much detail about the show in order to avoid spoiling it for others going or in fear of shedding a tear or two. I know you're probably hoping for photos and/or videos (you will get to see them at some point if you really want to, just let me know in the comments!) but right now I'm avoiding looking through them...sorry!

But one thing I can say...If you get the opportunity to see McBusted, even if you're not a huge fan of them, buy a ticket. Go on, trust me...it's worth it! They know how to put on a show, they know how to get you up dancing and singing your heart out, and they know how to make it the best night of your life.


Esmee x

The end of an era

So that is it. The doors have closed and the final bell has rung.

Waterloo Road has finished.

I have always loved this show since I first discovered it back in series 4 and I am absolutely gutted that it has come to an end. Even though it was a fictional school there were times when I felt as though I was part of it and a pupil like all the rest. It's something I'm never going to forget. 

Multiply episodes have made me laugh, made me gasp in shock or in quite a few cases, cry my heart out. 

I thought, to celebrate the end of an extremely well-loved TV show, that we look back at some memories and best bits from the 10 series!

Personal favourite storylines/episodes of mine were;

Finn Sharkey's suicide attempt 

Tom Clarkson falling off the school roof

When Dynasty called the cops on her own brother

Christine Mulgrew's breakdown 

Josh Clarkson's schizophrenia storyline discovered from these breakdowns video clip video clip

When Lauren tried to burn off her birthmark scar with acid in hope that Josh would like her video clip

Justin confronting Leo about the cyberbullying video clip

There were many characters who I adored and will always remember from the years I watched (from left to right); Lauren Andrews, Vicki MacDonald, Finn Sharkey, Christopher Mead, Justin Fitzgerald, Dynasty Barry, Ronan Burley, Tom Clarkson and Janeece Bryant.

With the help of Chlo Winfield (over from @WaterlooRoadTV) we have complied a list of some memories and best bits! (I have done my best to find clips for each! If you want to watch full episodes there's many on youtube.)

Chlo and Mika’s dad protests on the roof

Chlo and Donte’s wedding

Mika and Brett perform in the school musical

The school burns down in the fire

The Kelly family arrive 

Earl shoots Maxine with a gun 

Waterloo Road merges with John Fosters 

Lindsay confesses to killing her father video clip

Sambuca and Lauren steal a piglet and bring it to school video clip 

Janeece almost has her baby in the school toilets video clip

Hodge tries to kidnap Bex and Jess Fisher

Cesca and Jonah elope to Gretna Green 

Sambuca Kelly's cancer video clips

Sambuca, Lauren and Finn go to Blackpool video clip

Everyone protests on the roof to save the school

The Barry family arrive video clip

Imogen and Connor get married video clip

Tom Clarkson dies falling off the roof

Kacey Barry boxes with Nicola Adams video clip

Justin Fitzgerald's arrival 

Justin tries to run away and takes Tiffany with him

The current love square

All there is left to say is...goodbye Waterloo Road, you truly will be missed by so many. 

Esmee x