Dear my 18 year old Self...

Here we are again...me talking about myself :P. Well actually this week's post (it's not Saturday...oops!) is actually me talking to my future self. In just under two years time I will be 18, so what I've decided to do is write a note to my 18 year old self with a few things I want achieve by then.

"Dear My 18 Year Old Self...

1. Continue blogging - I tend to give up on things very easily so I really hope that you've stuck to writing blog posts and if you do I'll be quite proud of you for doing so!

2. Get a job - I currently do the odd bit of babysitting whenever I'm needed, don't get me wrong I love doing it and it's easy money, but I just want you to have proper job working somewhere like a restaurant, shop or cafe where you have set hours that you are paid for.

3. Be healthier - 2013's New Year's resolution was to stop eating crisps and sweets and to stop drinking fizzy drinks so I really hope you've stuck to that and started to drink more water too!

4. Join a Gym/be more active - Being honest, I am pretty lazy and constantly complain about it so I wish that you've done something about it...joining a gym could be pushing it a little but I at least hope you've become more active in someway.

5. Learn how to save money - I am terrible at this! When I see something I like I tend so buy it or when I'm out with my friend's we tend to go out to restaurants for lunch. I hope that in two years time your bank account isn't empty!

6. Go to Disney again - This one might not/probably won't happen but I hope you go to Disney again even if it is just Disneyland Paris.

7. Have a prom date - This one is a little sad and cheesy but yeah, every girl can dream! 

8. Be positive/happy - To be honest this is the one that I want to happen the most. Things have never gone smoothly in my life so I wish that you are happy in every aspect of your life and you are being positive rather than negative.

9. Improve your photography skills - I'm just about to buy a new camera and I really hope in two years time you have a pretty impressive photography folio.

10. Be the bottle of water not the fizzy drink - I'm gonna leave this one without an explanation to see if you actually remember what it means.

...I hope you at least try to stick to some of these 18 year old self...and if you don't shame on you!"

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On another note, my friend Callie (more about her next week!) did my make up for me! What do you think?

(update from the last post...this is the Topshop Gloss Ink in Cruel!)

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Esmee x

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Beauty & Fashion Wish List

I wasn't sure what this weeks post was going to be about but as all week I have been adding things to buy onto a note on my phone I thought I'd do a beauty and fashion wish list. So here goes!

The first product on the list is Topshop's Gloss Ink. I heard about this from FleurDeForce's post HERE. I thought I'd try Cruel (the same one as Fleur bought) because I really like the colour and I don't suit bright reds or pinks but I might suit this shade...there's only one way to find out!

Next is a foundation. The debate between which one has taken along time and I'm still not sure which to go for! I've narrowed it down to Match Perfection or Wake Me Up both by Rimmel. (If you have used either please tweet me/comment down below why you like it to help me decide!)

So many blogger/vloggers rave about Collection Lasting Perfection concealer so I've added it to my wish list! 

I suffer from blackheads more that spots and have been struggling to find a product which will get rid of them. A couple of weeks ago I tweeted beauty blogger Anna from viviannadoesmakeup and she suggested the Borghese Fango Active Mud Mask. I'm not really a fan of face masks and never heard of this product but as Anna know's what she's talking about when it comes to beauty, I have added it to the list. (Looking it up now I might need to find a cheaper alternative as it can be quite expensive!!)

My final beauty products that are a must-buy (as soon as they come to Superdrug!) are Tanya Burr's Lips and Nails range!

For those of you who don't know who Tanya is she is a beauty blogger and vlogger who for years has been creating her first collection.

I don't tend to wear a lot of lip glosses other than a clear one and as Topshop's Gloss Ink will be one of my next purchases, I think I might give the lip glosses a miss for the time being. There are three nail polishes in particular that I want to buy which are Little Duck, Mini Marshmallows and Penguin Chic because they're shades that I could possibly get away with at school.

Tanya's products are currently available on feelunique 

Be Bright Be Happy and New York Night will also be shades I will buy eventually!

I've recently discovered a website called Pastel Clouds who do the most beautiful fun jewellery I have ever seen! I have fallen in love with almost all of their products and desperately want to buy the products featured in the picture below!

Photo's taken from their website

Only a few items of clothing on my wish list at the moment with are a denim skater skirt, a bowler hat and a pair of hi-tops.

Esmee xx

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Busy Bees

My prelims finished a couple of weeks ago and I have finally got my results back...five As and three Bs! And what is even better is that one of those Bs was for English! For those of you who don't know me, I really struggle with English and I thought then prelim was quite tricky...so I am thrilled that I managed to pass! 

Right now, I am currently supposed to be writing my reflective piece for my folio, so far it's going alright but I have chosen quite a personal issue and finding it difficult to put down my feelings onto a piece of paper.

I'm also stressing out about my Art portfolio as I feel like I'm falling behind which I desperately wanted to avoid! What is worse is now my teacher is stressing out too which doesn't help when I need a answer to a question!!

Word of warning to those of you who don't own a Mac...they are incredibly confusing and complicated to use, especially with design software such as Photoshop or InDesign...soon you think you know what you're doing, then something else goes wrong!

(If anyone has any tips that would be much appreciated!!)

Today's quote is:

Board this is pinned on

Sorry for a short post...I've stared so many but just have no idea how to expand and finish them!

In addition I do have quite a bit of course work to be doing so I'll just have to see when I have some spare time!

Esmee x

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Just Another Boyband

Last Wednesday (22/01/14) Tom Parker, Nathan Sykes, Max George, Jay McGuiness and Siva Kaneswaran announced that The Wanted would be taking a break. And obviously this caused a lot of distress and sadness on my twitter timeline.

Quote from The Wanted Life by Jay McGuiness

To most people they are just another boyband but to so many people they mean so much more. They have changed the lives of so many people, so therefore this split (and directioners making fun of it) is heartbreaking as the five guys who said they would always be there are going their separate ways.

Jem's twitter: https://twitter.com/rxdicaltho

For those of you who don't know, The Wanted used to have a thing called "Wanted Wednesday" and every Wednesday they would send a mailer around and upload a video to YouTube.

Siobhan's twitter: https://twitter.com/mysexysykes_tw

I've read so many stories about how these five guys have helped so many people with being confident in who they are and staying strong. So I thought I'd share just a little how they helped me. Roughly about four years ago I was struggling at school, not academically but socially as I was being pushed away by anybody I classed as my friend. I felt isolated therefore at break and lunch times I used to sit with my headphones in listening to music.
 Listening to The Wanted.
Whenever I heard their voices, whether on the radio, the telly, the flip or just listening to their songs, a smile would spread across my face. They never failed to cheer me up.
Things at school were going so badly that my grades began to drop and I was miserable all the time which began to affect my family as well. That's when my parents suggested moving schools. I didn't know what to think about this, whether to go with my heart and move as it would be a fresh start or my head and stay where I was because I was scared things would repeat. 
One day I was on twitter and so was Max from the band so I tweeted him asking if I could talk to him...and he replied! That was something I was not expecting at all! After briefly explaining things to him, he replied again telling me to follow my heart as he said... 

"I'd see it out and I'm sure you won't regret it x"

So I did. And it's been one of the best decisions I have ever made. I am so much happier now and I am so thankful of Max and the other boys for helping me to stay strong throughout my struggles. 

Siobhan's twitter: https://twitter.com/mysexysykes_tw

The thing that upsets me the most about the break they are taking, is that now I might not get the chance to meet them to tell them how much they mean to me and to actually thank Max George in person. For basically changing my life and shaping me to who I am today.

Esmee xx

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Response to Marcus Butler's recent video - (posted on the 14th January 2014)

A matter of minutes ago Marcus Butler uploaded a video about bullying and self belief on his youtube channel (I will link the video below) and it really inspired me.

I haven't been bullied as such but I've witnessed it happen to quite a few people but I've always stayed quite and haven't mentioned it to anyone that could help. I've also seen a bully gain "power" over their "victim" as he or she has reacted to the bullying and has either gotten upset over it or angry about it.

I agree with him to certain extent about the teachers at school being able to help. Yes some teachers will know how to handle a situation but most of them don't and the issue gets passed around members of staff and when the result of the issue finally gets back to the victim so many people know about the problem, which I guess could be a good thing but is also a bad thing because it results in more 'bullying' to say. The bully gets spoken to and the teachers believe that's the end of it but really it can just make things a lot worse. 

He puts forward a message that everyone needs to realise and learn from which is:

"no matter what you do in life, you are always gonna have somebody who is trying to take you down"

And because of this we should all do what we want rather than listening to what people are saying about you. At the end of the day it's your life and you should do what you want.

(in a way this links to my previous post HERE)

Here is the link to Marcus Butler's video make sure to check him out, like the video and subscribe to him!

Esmee x

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